Forever

How long is forever?

I only ask because I never want this to end

Hand in hand

I don’t ever want to let go

This love is refreshing

You were here from the beginning

How did I overlook you?

Now I can’t take my eyes off of you

Is this normal?

Or am I just ignorant to the depth of what this truly is?

Your eyes burn bright

Your smile lights up the darkest places

Your voice restores what years of war has destroyed

How long is forever?

I only ask because I can never live without you again

You call me by my name and I love the way it sounds when you speak it

There’s purpose in me again

There’s motivation to get up every morning now

Oh my soul, I told you we’d see this day

Now look at us

Goosebumps run down my arms when I see you

My ears perk up when you look at me

How long is forever?

I only ask because forever just doesn’t seem long enough

Indescribable Love

Who knows the heart better than the one who created it?

They see me emotionally unstable

You see me as a beautiful kind of broken

What is it about this mess of a man I am that intrigues you?

Why do you sit at the edge of your seat and lean in when I speak?

Why is it that you cant’t seem to contain yourself when I’m in your presence?

I’ve never had anybody love me the way you do

You know my heart

I believe you do

By the way you love me I don’t need anymore proof

When I’m in your arms, why does time seem to stop?

When we’re face to face, why does nothing else matter?

Your eyes are gentle

Your smile is relieving

What is it about me that captivates you?

Why am I so special to visit the depths of your mystery, not even the most notable could ever?

Have you ever loved someone so dearly your heart clenches just seeing a tear fall from their cheek?

I get the feeling you know the feeling

I’ve made the decision to not continue if you are not with me

I’ve been called a quitter by plenty

They throw stones while I stand on this rock

I’ll just lean my head into your chest and listen to your heart beat

This beautiful symphony

Who knows your heart better than the one who seeks it?

Who knows love better than the one who means it?

 

Process

I’ll wait for you

Drag my name through the dirt

I’ll wait for you

One day

Or an eternity

I’ll be waiting right here just for you

I’ll lose sleep but it’s okay

If one day I see your figure in the distance

It’s worth it

You don’t understand this love now

But one day you will

I’m antsy just thinking the thought of seeing you again

I’ll be right here at the edge of this doorstep anticipating the moment I get to have you in my arms again

Don’t worry about if I still love you or not

I never stopped

You can have me all you want

I’ll take the blame for how this world hurt you

I’ll clothe you in the finest of linen

And adorn your head with the most beautiful crown

There was never a question if you still had a place in my house

It was only a matter of

If you truly understand who you are

Oh my child

You don’t understand this love now

But one day you will

Rest your head against my chest and listen to how this heart beats for you

Eternity can come and go and I’ll still wait for you

This world could end and a new one be created

I’ll still wait for you

I promise

I’ll be right here

Waiting for you

Psalm 23

I can feel the serene breeze of the wind as you walk by

Where are you going?

What are you doing?

Can I come too?

I can hear the quiet flow of the stream nearby

I can’t help but close my eyes , take a deep breath, and soak it all in

It’s been a while since I’ve had this peace

This calmness

I can see the detail of the beauty in everything around me

Did you make this?

This place makes me never want to put my armor back on

Never pick up my sword again

This place makes all these wounds and scars worth it

I’ve never seen a pasture more green

Can I lay right here?

For the first time in a while I can sleep without worry

Where did you go?

I follow in your footprints

Goodness and love follow in mine

Can I stay here just a little longer?

How about forever?

Ember of Healing

Everything’s broken

Everything’s shattered

The flames of fire sweep across my land

Everything’s scorched

That orange hue of ember is forever etched in my mind

I can feel new scars forming

I could’ve done something

Instead my true nature took hold

Every bone in my body is cowardice

Forgive me

If that even means anything

I am the strongest of the strong

I am the weakest of the weak

The war is over

But this healing path is a whole different battle

I love myself

I hate myself

I wish I could just die

I know I can live forever

I broke and shattered everything

I started the fire

I watched it all burn

The war is over

But this healing path is a whole different battle

Intercession

I can see your pain

I can feel it

Is it arbitrary to say that I understand the reason for your tears?

Or would you believe me when I say I lose sleep feeling what you feel?

In the quiet of the night I call you out by name through my prayers

In hopes that God would heal you

I can see the excruciating pain in your smile

I can hear the cry for help in your, “I’m doing fine” reply

Us, broken

I know the walls we must climb to keep moving forward

Us, broken

I know the giants we must slay to keep living

Us, broken

I know the truths we must face to keep growing

One thing is for sure

We break, fall apart, and give up a thousand times

I endure for you

As you do for me

The strong will never be stronger than the weak

What is strength without ever knowing weakness?

Those who told you to shut up and get it together

Will never be strong enough to live forever

Let it out

Let it out and live like you could never

The Face of Love

I’m looking out into an endless ocean

What is the depth?

What is the length?

What unknown lies beneath these waves?

Is this what true love looks like?

The endless love you have for me

The depth and length of this love

I can’t see the bottom

As far as the east is from the west

I can’t see the end

This kind of love is scary

This kind of love is dangerous

Be still, my heart

For as long as I’ve been at sea

Waves have crashed against my boat

A violent war

Never once have I come close to sinking

Are you the reason why I haven’t sunk yet?

Many times I’ve seen you on the horizon

Many times I’ve contemplated leaving my faithful and resilient boat to reach you

Is it time to step out?

What is the cost of this love?

Be still, my heart

Welcome to Eternity

I caught a glimpse of who I am

I didn’t recognize myself

Frightened

Amazed

The only two things I could feel

My eyes were on fire

My heart was calm

My walk was peaceful

My spirit was intent

In an instant I questioned how this could be me

And never gave it a second thought

I knew the answer

I’ve always known the answer

Open up oh my heart

Open up oh my mouth

Tear down all that you’ve built

Speak up all that you fear

Metamorphosis, Metamorphosis, Metamorphosis

Who are you?

Unrecognizable

Who you are

Undeniable

Hello earth

Meet heaven

Hello impossible

It’s me again

The Healing of My Heart

I’m in love with you

More in love with you than anything else in this world

You’re the only one I’ll chase to the ends of the earth

Keep the money

Keep the car

Keep the house and its picket fence

As long as I have you I’m the richest

Don’t leave my side

Let’s lie in the grass and stare at the sky until the stars fade

Let’s chase our wildest dreams until reality sets in

Let’s make the world a better place until we reach old age

Let’s watch our children finish what we started

Just me and you

That’s how it has always been

That’s how it was always meant to end

Don’t let go of my hand

Turn my heart inside out

Make it clean again

Make it bleed again

Turn my heart inside out

Make it leave for good

Let me breathe for good

Identity

I’m walking back into the war I fought for so long

I’m running back into the war I feared for so long

Don’t worry

I know why I’m fighting now

Those with me are more than those with them

My eyes are open

We march

Sprinting to the battle line

I’m taking back everything

Everything

My hands are steady

My feet are planted

My sword, sharper than any double edged

I know why I do this now

I know why I’m here

I’ve been here before

I know the cost

I know the sacrifice

I know defeat

My victory is great

Where men died, I lived

Where men lost, I won

Where hope faded, I believed

Don’t worry, I know why I’m fighting now

Don’t wait up for me

I’ll return to you

One way or another